Editor’s Note: This was originally published for FANGORIA on March 18, 2011, and we’re proud to share it as part of The Gingold Files.
There are many reasons to feel Bereavement while watching Stevan Menaโs new horror film, and most of them stem from the actions of its villain, Graham Sutter. Played by Brett Rickaby, Sutter not only kidnaps young women and murders them in his abandoned-slaughterhouse home, but forces his abducted preteen โprotรฉgรฉ,โ Martin Bristol (Spencer List), to witness these hideous acts. Itโs the first lead and the most attention-grabbing part yet for Rickaby, a veteran of numerous screen and stage roles previously most recognizable to horror fans as the jailed, raving Bill Farnum in The Crazies.
How did you get involved with Bereavementโwas it something Mena sought you out for, or did you just come in to audition?
This actually came as an offer, and it was kind of an interesting surprise. I was in New Yorkโmy first time back there in like nine, 10 yearsโdoing this new Sam Shepard piece at the Public Theater. Iโve always been a tremendous Shepard fan, and I got to play a quintessential Sam Shepard male, which was just thrilling for me. We had just finished that, and I got on a flight home and literally, as we landed on the tarmac, I turned my phone back on, and there was a message. I called my manager, who said, โThereโs an offer for you for this movie.โ โUhโฆwhat?!โ [Laughs] Itโs not something Iโve been accustomed to. So I read the script, I called up Stevan and we started a dialogue. I know Iโm not the first one it was offered to, but I think if you were to ask Stevan, he was glad it ended up the way it did. And I am, thatโs for sure!
Did being on the incredibly creepy locations Mena found for the film help with your performance?
Oh yeah, that atmosphere definitely made it easy. But also, Stevan had written one of the most emotionally dynamic characters Iโd ever read, and other than giving me the opportunity to do it, which Iโll always be grateful to Stevan forโas an actor, it was a tremendous playground. It was huge. I had been practicing emotional range in my work, and resiliency, and when I read this role, I knew I was going to need that. I had been asking for something like that to come along, and was grateful for the opportunity to jump into it.
How was it working with Spencer List as young Martin?
Oh, man, he was totally professional. He knew it was just acting, but that didnโt keep him from totally engaging. One of the first scenes we did together was the one in the kitchen, where I run the knife through his hand. From an acting standpoint, thatโs one of my favorite moments. Prior to that, we didnโt have a lot of communication, because we wanted it to be vital and alive, and fully realized in the moment. So we got a lot out of that, and from then on, we were able to fully commit and engage while we were working, and, when the camera was off and we were away, to just hang out and have fun. He loved the whole thing, the whole process, and when he knew a death was coming up, he would find a thrill in it. When youโd tell him something like that was gonna happen, heโd be like, โAwesome!โ [Laughs] Heโd be so into it, and I really got a kick out of that. And itโs just tremendous work on his part too.
Was there any sensitivity about him being so young and being exposed to the violent moments, or even the intensity of your performance?
Well, Spencer seemed to have an ability to build resilience; he was able to put himself in those situations, fully go through them, and then sort of wipe them away, like, โWell, that was just a dream.โ There was a detachment from it that he was able to handle. The one I was concerned about was Chase [Pechacek], who played the younger Martin. We didnโt have him do as much of that stuff, except the scene where I drag a knife across his cheek. And you know, there was a delicate balance thereโbetween being sensitive to what this could do to a childโs psyche, even though youโre letting him know that weโre just playing, that weโre just doing this for the sake of telling the storyโbut at the same time, it canโt be so safe that thereโs no drama involved. So it was a really delicate balance. Sometimes you can go too far to make something real, and then you have to make it OK, and then sometimes itโs too OK, so thereโs nothing at stake.
How does that affect them from here on? I donโt know. I can tell you that this whole experience has affected me, in a really good way. [Laughs] I met a few of my demons along the way, and that was OK. I just realized that they were phantoms, just false beliefs, figments of my own imagination. But thatโs why Sutterโs tragicโhe believes theyโre real. Thatโs the tragedy of it. The real horror of Bereavement, I think, is that frequently the actions we take in pursuit of our own redemptionโwhich is what Sutterโs after; he wants to be redeemedโbecome horrors we perpetuate on our fellow man. Thatโs the really scary thing about Sutter. He thinks heโs doing the right thing in order for him to move on to a better place, but what heโs doing creates horrors for other people.
Your role in The Crazies is a different sort of character, who has no control over his actions and is kind of forced into doing evil, in a sense, by the biotoxin that overtakes him.
Yeah. The comparison for those roles is that theyโre both crazy [laughs], but theyโre very different. The Crazies was actually one of the easiest parts Iโve ever played. The only difficult thing was putting my arms through the jail bars; I got pretty damn bruised up doing that, but thatโs how it goes. The rest of the film was so easy; then we got to that scene, and it was like, โYouโre gonna jump up against the bars and scream,โ and thought, โOh, pffft, this is gonna be so easy; this is what I do, commit to big emotional stuff, this is my home.โ But we were doing it, and [director] Breck Eisner was like, โHey, man, I donโt know what to tell ya, but itโs not working.โ [Laughs] And meanwhile, I donโt know if youโve ever done it, but arms are not meant to go through bars! I was already getting beat up, and I said, โLook, dude, Iโm committing.โ And he was like, โI donโt know what to tell you, but itโs not reading.โ And I thought, โCrap, man, Iโve gotta sell my body out here to make this work. Iโve got to forget about the pain, and just go with it.โ
One of the things Breck talked about was that there was a progression with the illness from drinking the water, that there were stages. And Bill is the one where we get to see the stages evolve. So it was really important that they be defined for me at different times. First, there was this sort of dizziness and low energy, and eventually, it evolved to a point where your worst thoughts become your predominant thoughts, and then thatโs itโyou just act from that place, only from your worst impulses. So I had to tap into that.
Itโs funny, because we worked on Bereavement for three years, and I went to Pennsylvania four times over that period. And I loved the involvement. There were times at the end where I knew that the money was running low, and Stevan was calling me up, saying, โHey, we need some stuff; can you come do it?โ and I was like, โDude, Iโm in. You baby is my baby, and we both love it, and letโs go love it some more until we get it.โ We had finished principal photography, and Mena and his team were attending a convention out here for Brutal Massacre, and I met up with them. And that night, I started getting ill. I honestly was as sick as Iโve ever been. I had a case of Ramsey Hunt syndrome, which is basically shingles of the ear, and in the midst of that, thereโs an attack of the nervous system; itโs a virus, just like in The Crazies. When I tried to go to bed at night, I was literally visited by my worst thoughts; even my best thoughts were mocking me. It was horrible, beyond the physical pain of it, because it was connected to the nervous system, and it was doing something to my brain. So when Breck said, โYour worst thoughts become your predominant thoughts,โ I was like, โWell, I know about that!โ [Laughs] I had already gone through that, so it was relatively easy to do.
The difference with Sutter in terms of his insanity is, itโs the other side of the coin that gives it its punch. Itโs the hope for redemption thatโs not realized that makes the despair so profound. The more he lives in his own redemption, the more he believes in how great things will turn out, the more significant the loss will be. So thatโs where the difference was in terms of navigating those particular thought processes, and what these men do emotionally along the way.